“𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.”
I think with how my life has gone since I can remember is everything in life that has given me time and time again reasons to be numb, distant, cold hearted, spiteful, aggressive, the list goes on. I went things no human being should ever have to, I’ve experienced and heard things no one ever deserves to go through, some things extremely hard to recover from. I wasn’t always the best person truthfully due to what I had been through, but I always did want to be better, different then what I was raised in.
I’ve fought my entire life to become that, to find a way to not stay bitter, harsh, and to instead be empathetic, kind, thoughtful, and play my part in society to work on becoming what I’d like to see more in this World. I worked hard to set myself up for success mentally and emotionally and of course now financially, to give myself a life I always did and do deserve. Something a couple of years ago I promised myself was to never let the harshness of others ruin the softness of me that I’ve spent so long and hard building. My heart has been crushed so many times since that promise, so many heart wrenching and tough situations I’ve been presented with in life to say the least, but I’m holding true to that promise to myself, not always the easiest but the best because as much as I hate pain I don’t want to be the one to cause it the way others and life has caused it to me.
I’m not always perfect but I surely make a great effort and great success doing so, and I still feel anger and unpleasant emotions but it’s how I handle them and I’d like to say most of the time I’ve built the skill set to do that well, and in a healthy manner.
My dogs have been a huge part in cultivating the softness in me, looking at them with so much love not wanting to cause the harshness to them that I’ve had done to me, and to be the best I can in how I treat them. It helps having dogs so good at loving you that’s for sure. ❤️🤍