Run #11. oversharing. you may want to just skip it.
First, i will say that this ends my journey of posting every run. I needed to build my support team to get me into double digit runs and y’all were amazing.
second, it was 366 days ago that I ran my second 5k. it was in the desert with our friends. it was too much, pushing myself against better athletes, while working to defeat my own demons. I am certain that my glutteal tendon tear began on that day.
Today, i’m back at it. todays run wasn’t about pace but it was about endurance and I did it (except those two times my thighs hit the emergency stop button). ran 45 minutes without stopping. it’s takes focus and concentration for me to do it. @robinrobertsgma
and all the team at GMA also helped me focus as I was reading the captions.
But here is the thing. My entire life I have been a target for negativity. bullies. abuse. growing up I was never enough. not for my family - but for the rest of the world around me. @coachbennett
just posted about the anniversary of his brother’s passing. his brother played baseball and didn’t understand running. that is my sister. she didn’t understand me but growing up only she could pick on me - no one dared to attack me if she was around. his post really resonated with me. glad I still have my sister around.
But hearing things like slob. faggot. lazy. fat ass. moron. idiot. each of these words, they take a toll and leave permanent indentations on persons soul. this journey is about so much more than just getting fit enough to run some races. it’s about finally making me believe that I am enough and worthy.
It’s a long journey and it begins with me. I will still post when I get to some more milestones but for now - I will see you later.
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