hi. I’m Toni, but my real name is... Antoinee Je’Taime. I know, I know my mom got a little creative. but, it means “Anthony, I love you”, & Anthony’s my dad, so, here we are. :). I’m about healing, hope in Jesus & wholeness. people have been mad about the church not talking about mental & emotional health so as a Christian (with a pretty wild past #hellotwerkteam 😅) I owe it to myself to never stop. i grew up in a culture & a church that preached holiness but didn’t invite us into healing mind, body and soul. some of us have even been condemned for it. I will forever encourage people to heal & point them in the direction of resources, licensed professionals & healthy life practices. I grew up in Houston TEXAS BABY 🤘🏽 in a blended family with 3 older brothers. when I was in the 3rd grade my mom had a massive stroke & it changed our lives forever. I helped my mom physically heal for years & because my dad worked alot & couldn’t be emotionally present, I grew up way too fast & looked for attention and numbed in all of the wrong places (like lil boys & a whole bunch of weed & alcohol). I’ve walked through sexual & spiritual manipulation, drugs, drunk college nights, an eating disorder, a toxic marriage, abuse, divorce, insecurity, anxiety, counseling, remarriage, trauma groups & treatment, more counseling & the realization that even with all my brokenness God is still willing to work through me. IN YO FREAKIN FACE ENEMY I travel lots as a host & preacher telling my story of brokenness & hope. Im the host of my very own podcast the #StillColoringPodcast & brand new author of #BraveEnoughtobeBroken ! I still think about doing wild things sometimes. I post about my littles, I talk about the hard things, I expose freely the depths of my own brokenness, I shout Jesus from the rooftops, embrace friendships without conversion or condition & fervently pray that hope will permeate the hearts of my followers through my words & way of life. grateful that you’re here. welcome to my page frands. hoping that we grow deep, honor difference, love real hard, heal well & lean into pain together. you & your ratchedness, mistakes & wild thoughts are welcome here 🤸🏽♀️
ITS HERE. 🎄 we get to be a part of changing 50 lives yall. 🤯 each of these cutie ornaments represent 50 cutie girls and boys in Africa waiting on our generosity. 50 future leaders and the only thing standing in their way is the opportunity to go to school and be cared for by the staff and pastors at @africanewlife SO LETS FREAKIN DO THE THING. for $39 a month we get to cover the school fees, uniforms, meals, school supplies and even medical assistance for 50 lives. I got to see this work up close (I’ll be sharing some fun moments of my trip) and it changed my entire life (more details on that later, promise) 🤸🏽♀️ our family sponsors a little girl the same age as Dylan and we just decided to sponsor another student this holiday season because of how impactful it has been to watch a little girls future be changed by our $39 a month. I believe in this community of people pursuing healing and wholeness for themselves, but also for the generations! me and my daughter Dylan will be keeping track of how many ornaments (students) we all sponsors!! we’ll make our own replica of this graphic and it’ll just be the most fun. 🎄 let’s fill it up Fam! ready to dive in right now? go to africanewlife.org/Toni if not right now, it’s okay. start praying about it, having conversations with your boo and stay tuned for more info!!
little Toni would be so proud of what’s coming on November 1st. she’d probably be really shocked that the darkness that entered her story at 8 has not only been defeated by light but also that she’s turned all of that pain into a whole book helping women find hope. I’ve never claimed to be an expert in anything but telling my own story well and putting the strategies and resources and licensed professionals I used to heal my story into devotionals and courses and books. and I won’t stop. because there are people out there sitting in the pain of their pasts with no one to help show them how to heal, how to get out of toxic community, how to find a counselor, how to practice gratitude, and how to reclaim hope for their lives. i refuse to let women like me stay stuck in valleys thinking that God isn’t with them there and carrying them out. I pray that anyone that reads my new book will find more than just a story they’ll find real help and hope. preorder today to get the book and lots of bonus gifts including my 6 episode Docuseries of the raw behind the scenes of my story. order at tonijcollier.com/brave
If you want a FULL life, like 100% of what God has for you, watch this. because I don’t know about you fam but me and @loswhit are DONE with a measly 60%. 👌🏽 we were always made for goodness, for Eden, for the full scope of His love for us. and not just the people that we as humans decide a full life was made for, but ALL of His sons and daughters. we aren’t taking the scraps, instead we’ll face the hard things, embrace the pain, allow God to transform us and BE the humans with real full lives He’s designed us to be. Order “How to Human” the book, asappppp. With the time we each have left, it’s time we make it real real full. 💯
meet Dylan. my 8-year-old-strong-willed-blessing 😅 she saved me from the Toni you’ll see as you swipe through the pictures. this little girl pushed me towards healing and she probably won’t know it until a decade or so from now. because the Toni in these pictures oozed insecurity 😅, she was a fan of God not a follower, she hid her lack of self-worth behind sexy clothes and flirty pictures on the gram for attention 🤦🏽♀️, she numbed the anxiety of being in a toxic marriage and at a church with unhealthy leadership with weed and alcohol. she played holy and burned out. I’ll only fail in this way once though. I’ve learned, I’ve done my work, I’ve humbled myself and I’ve found real security, so that hopefully one day my daughter will be 31 like me and say thank God I was raised by a woman who pursued healing and wholeness, who became a follower and not just a fan of God, and not that other girl 😂thanks Dyl 🖤
your healing is bigger than you! WAYYYY bigger than you. because fam WE LEAK. our toxicity and unhealth doesn’t isolate. If we’re unhealthy husbands and wives, we’re also unhealthy sons and daughters, moms and dads, friends, coworkers and leaders. we leak. so maybe as you’re on the painful, never linear journey of healing, start to think about how a more hopeful you will undoubtedly produce a more hope-filled life for you and others around you.
let’s be real, we really need hope when life SUCKS! to all of my leaders out there in churches, and organizations and homes and corporations that are feeling depleted and discounted. remember what my friend @karriescottgarcia says “hope rises from the dirt”. that valley WONT take you out, that pain WONT crush you, that despair is a breeding ground for the hope that your surrender will manifest. hold on, don’t let go, because God surely hasn’t. your hope is on the way!
LAST EPISODE OF THE SEASON 🥹 and we go out with a bangggggg. could you imagine if EVERY human in your life pursued healing? 👀 what would our world look like if people saw our humanity BEFORE they saw our differences. Wooh Chile, WE ALMOST TALKING ABOUT HEAVEN 😂 anywho, don’t miss this episode. Carlos is profound and extremely smart, and more than that He’s a man after real conviction and transformation and danget that’s worth the listen. GO TRY TO BE BETTER HUMANS YALL. THEN…order his new book HOW TO HUMAN (I make a huge mistake on the podcast with this title 😂) available everywhere you buy books and such. tonijcollier.com/podcast #linkinbio
REMINDER: watch this to be reminded of your worth today, your place in the hands of your Creator today, your reminder that inspite of you He still chooses you today. watch the full talk on my YouTube at YouTube.com/@tonijcollier #LinkinBio
where do you take your betrayals? first of all let me just say “I DONE TRIED TO TELL YALL ABOUT JO SAXTON” she’s coming in hotttt with some truth about betrayal on my podcast this week. 🔥🔥🔥 here’s the deal, no one is asking you to let go of and surpress and hide your betrayals and offenses, we’re just saying “take them to someone that can do something about it”. your hurt matters, your painful encounters matter and there’s no one that cares more about healing you from them than the King of the cross. listen to this weeks episode at tonijcollier.com/podcast the #StillColoringPodcast is always going to be worth the listen I promise!!
y’all wanna talk about surrendering or nah? 👀😂😅 we need real surrender though, we need lordship. I don’t know about y’all but I’m NUTS! I’m two old fashioneds and a skinny dip away from losing it all. I’m just a wild girl 😂 and with my past, temptation and sliding back into old habits is a REAL thing. so I need real, raw, authentic surrender. not the cute Sunday worship kind, the prostrate “Jesus I give every ounce to you” kind. He needs to order the steps of my day, my ideas, my evareethang. because, well he’s just better at it. the Lord really do be Lording. 🖤🤸🏽♀️
we NEED women who have come before us that aren’t afraid to be direct, honest, vulnerable and SMART 😂 to help shape us as we come behind them. @josaxton is that women for me. I’ve watched her for years before we ran into each other in green rooms. she’s been honest with me about when I’ve needed to transition from a place, helped me understand the importance of financial foresight, shown by example what it looks like to gracefull forfeit fighting for our voice and place as women and instead create spaces that prove we shouldn’t have had to fight in the first place, and made me HOLLER laughing. she’s the real deal and she has embraced and overcome pain, even in the place where her faith and pain was supposed to be safe. In this episode we talk about ALL of that. that’s why it’s called Betrayal, Loaded Grief and The Church. 😅 it’s heavy, it’s full of wisdom and it’s something you should plan on listening to. and if you’re a woman struggling with finding your voice and place of leadership you should go sign up for Jo’s ‘Ezer Collective’ I went and it changed me! tonijcollier.com/podcast #StillColoringPodcast #EmbracingPain