Have you ever gone through your old photos and you have an array of feelings…
I’ve mustered up the courage to dig into my old photos and some of them I tear up because of an innocence, bravery, and naivety that I had then.
Some, I question was that moment real or were there lies behind some of the smiles in the picture.
Some, I become grateful for what I’ve learned, grateful for how far I’ve come and grateful for the memory.
I found this one.
This picture probably reflects the innocence and bravery I had in my early 20’s.
I had just moved into my first office with inventory that my former husband and I purchased out of side hustle jobs.
Printing and shipping was hard 10 years ago… print on demand did not exist in the same way as it does now. I had to hire interns to help me with the administrative side of returns, exchanges, inventory count, adjusting the inventory to reflect what’s online and on your shelf so I wouldn’t oversell. I had to learn shipping software and figure out how to do a spreadsheet of profit and loss statements.
In this photo I remember how I had no fear in pursuing a business… I was blindly naive and bold. I just went for it.
I’m more timid and honestly scared. Sure there is some wisdom to my hesitation in what I’ve learned amidst my “failures”…. But having hesitation out of fear vs wisdom looks so different. There’s a form of being simply paralyzed that I’ve been wrestling with.
So Worth Loving is getting a new look and collection come November 28— (our birthday) and as that date approaches, every bit of fear is popping up.
Are we still relevant?
Do people still believe in our mission?
Can I do retail again?
The ultimate one: Will I be rejected publicly after being vulnerable to a dream?
I trust God in it, this time.
I don’t want to do this business out of my own strength like I did boldly in my 20’s...
My own wisdom won’t get this message into millions of peoples homes.
God, you have this. Have your way with so worth loving — expand its territory.